Σάββατο, 29 Οκτωβρίου 2011

I'd rather be left alone...



                                                I confess:



  I am sick and tired of the invasion of my personal space..

I suffer from invasion of personal space overload syndrome!


Here are a few symptoms of my condition:

 I don’t answer the doorbell every time. I  have stopped answering my cell phone when it is inconvenient ( that means most of the times,because when I'm working,I am working and when I am resting I definitely need my rest!) I only check my emails once a week or every ten days and I am even selective to whom I talk to on the phone at work. If you call me at home,my kids will tell you I am not around or the phone might be unplugged. I guess the best way to communicte with me nowadays is to come by and see me personally at work,where I see almost everyone out of necessity, or send me a text message on Facebook which I frequent  for fun and inspiration and which is a medium impersonal enough and so safe enough for me to express myself without being bothered too much by annoying attitudes and/or people .

Quite a few of my acquaintances have chosen to be offended by this attitude of mine.Have I turned into a hermit or a diva or something more sinister all of a sudden?


No, I haven't. I suffer from invasion of personal space syndrome.Which means,for the past couple of years and especially for the past six months too many people have been invading my personal space for the wrong reasons. Meaning,I've had too much of a load of shit to deal with in both my personal and public life and for such a long time,that now almost all approaches of communication from others are met with indifference on my part,unless they are about business. Meaning,I wish to be left alone more often than not. Even if we get to communicate initially, I probably won't follow through. Meaning,I won't be bothered to meet you half way in communication ,unless you have proven to me I can trust you not to be bothersome. (bothersome=demanding too much of my time or demanding more than I can give you at the moment).Meaning,If I have to choose between meeting you in person and talking to you on the phone,I'll choose the latter,because it's less trouble. And If I get to choose between talking to you on the phone and not at all,I'll  choose the latter, for the same reason.


Please don't take this personally.I mean,I know that you are a wonderful human being,I really do.Hey,there's hardly anyone in the world that I don't get to meet and like,because I am by nature forever focused on the positive side of people,things and situations. If you are a woman, I am honestly inspired by you inner and outer beauty and really,I am genetically much less competitive than most towards my sex.So most women inspire me and bring out my social self. If you are a man, your masculinity or other male admirable traits win my admiration and bring out my best feminine side.I might even be sexually attracted to you,but I definitely won't let you know. If you are a child,my motherly nature takes over and I want to love,guide and protect you to death.If you are my friend,I do love you dearly,think of you more often than you think and send you healing energy as often as I can,along with my loving thoughts.

 But no matter who you are,no matter how drawn I feel to you, I'd rather be left alone than get any closer to you right now. Because, knowing myself, I am more likely than not to absorb some of your energy,take on some of your issues,emotional or other (don't tell me you don't have any because that's a lie and you know it), and try to help you to the best of my abilities to overcome  them. But frankly,this is too overwhelming and exhausting,especially at times such as these that my own reserves of strength are low,because of the depleting power of other shit in my life.


Maybe you feel the same. Maybe you too,are suffering from the same syndrome.If that is the case,take heart,for I have some advice that has come in handy for me:


-Know thy limits

-Choose how and with whom you spend your time wisely

-Learn to say no

-Avoid energy vampires like the plague

-Explain to those dear and near to your heart about your need for privacy

-Find,create or steal some me-time and treat it like a sacred date with your God-self

Above all else,be unapologetic about your need for privacy and space






Love,peace and personal space

Eirini


 

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