''Αmazingly well. Because my wealth resides all in my heart and mind and soul and so I am almost always full of joy''.
I wasn't kidding.
Or putting up a brave face or pretending that everything is ok, pasting a fake smile all over my face to hide away my pain, anxiety or troubles.
I am faring amazingly well in this horrible economic crisis sweeping through my country.
Not because I belong to those lucky few that are so financially secure that they needn't worry about money.
Not because I am so naive or uninformed that I have no idea what is going on around me or how poverty and despair is turning my nation into havoc.
Nor am I being reliant on anyone else to secure my financial future.
Yes, you could safely say that when it comes to finances or the future , I'm as much in the shit as anyone else in my country.
''Then how come you say you're fine?''.
I am not just fine, my friend.
I AM HAPPY AND THRIVING.
In fact sometimes I 'm so overwhelmed with joy that I feel like dancing or singing (which I frequently do, see photo above taken in my elevator for evidence).
Because my wealth resides all in my heart and mind and soul and so I am almost always full of joy
Being happy is a habit of mine.
A decades long habit.
And like all habits, it continues automatically now, no matter what goes on in my life.
But it took tremendous effort and time on my part to be cultivated and it still does require conscious effort to be maintained.
It's like a mental workout.
If you could see my positivity and joy 'muscles', the ones in my heart and brain, you'd probably notice a positivity six pack and buttocks of joy made of steel, so to speak.
My aura of bliss is usually so strong that is noticeable not just by friends and acquaintances, but also by those who don't even know me and just come in contact with me, people in the street or even contacs in social media.
They notice and frequently comment of it:
''How come you're always so happy?''
Some are intrigued and surprised.They wonna know what amazingly good things are going on in my life, my source of happiness and joy.
Most of them though are annoyed
( you wouldn't even believe how much it pisses people off to see you happy in an atmosphere of mental gloom and unhappiness, it's almost you give them a blow of offence, like ''how dare she be happy when everyone else feels like shit?'').
Of course, same goes for positivity as it does for a gorgeous body. When we see someone with a gorgeous body, most people's instinctual reaction is either envy or admiration.
But very few stop to think for a moment the sheer hard effort this kind of gorgeous body requires.
They attribute it to luck, good genes, good metabolism, whatever. But the truth of the matter is, it's just pure hard work.
Same with positivity muscles.
Yes, I can tap into my happy mood almost whenever I wish. It's like I'm turning on a switch, that easy.
A friend once gave me some weed to smoke-I told him I've never tried any- and its effect on me was minimal. I told him''I dont need any fucking mind altering drugs or herbs or booze to help me get into my happy, I can do that automatically whenever I wish''.
I realise of course that I am blessed,because I do possess a priceless gift.
But like I said before, It is a gift that has been and is still consciously cultivated every single day of my life.
Just like a mental workout, it takes discipline and perseverence on my part to be maintained.
You see, I wake up every day, almost every single day of my life, and my first thought is ''Shit, another day...'' same as anybody else.
Every morning, the same old struggles:
-My body aches from scoliosis and middle age aches and pains and from having to sleep on the couch every single night because my bedroom is occupied.
And signs of aging in my mirror aren't helping with boosting my morning mood, either.
-My 6 year old throws frequent tantrums before during and after going to school.
-My home is usually in a frightful mess because of all those boys of various ages occupying it.
-My long overdue bills and insane taxes-upon-extra-taxes pile up yet a bit higher every morning
-My mum seems every day yet a bit more forgetful, more tearful and more needy in her old age and house confinement and more dependent on us for help
-My ongoing legal battle with banks and morgages-four of them, to be precise- is a constant reminder of what might happen if said battles are lost and we all end up on the streets
-My two dogs are, through no fault of mine, exiled in a village miles away from where I live and they need to be visited and fed and taken care of, not to mention for the drives that need to be arranged for me to arrive there.
-Students that are in need of my teaching services seem to becoming scarcer and even more demanding every week, asking much more for a much lesser prize.
-Assholes in my life seem to be multyplying with an alarming frequency, their crazy demands of me and my time also mutliplying in directly proportion.
And so, so much more that cannot be said or even insinuated here or else I'm in deep trouble.
Enough to give me my fair doses of misery of everyday.
Except they dont.
Because my happiness resides all in my heart and mind and soul and so I am almost always full of joy
Why am I telling you all this?
About my being happy and joyous in the face of trouble and difficulties
Or convinced you of my 'better than Thou' attitude?
(or maybe just a little....)
I'm doing this to show you by example that it's totally achievable and feasable to be happy, blissful even, in the face of all sorts of troubles and difficulties.
It's like a mental workout.
And in my next post I'll be showing you a dead easy way to turn positivity and joy into a life-long habit.